A PRINCESS OF THULE.
BY WILLIAM BLACK, AUTHOR OF "THE STRANGE ADVENTURES OF A
PHAETON."
CHAPTER XII.
TRANSFORMATION.
Had Sheila, then, Lavender could not help asking himself, a bad
temper, or any other qualities or characteristics which were apparent
to other people, but not to him? Was it possible that, after all,
Ingram was right, and that he had yet to learn the nature of the girl
he had married? It would be unfair to say that he suspected something
wrong about his wife—that he fancied she had managed to conceal
something—merely because Mrs. Lavender had said that Sheila had
a bad temper; but here was another person who maintained that when
the days of his romance were over he would see the girl in another
light.
Nay, as he continued to ask himself, had not the change already
begun? He grew less and less accustomed to see in Sheila a beautiful
wild sea-bird that had fluttered down for a time into a strange home
in the South. He had not quite forgotten or abandoned those
imaginative scenes in which the wonderful sea-princess was to enter
crowded drawing-rooms and have all the world standing back to regard
her and admire her and sing her praises. But now he was not so sure
that that would be the result of Sheila's entrance into society.
As the date of a certain dinner-party drew near he began to wish she
was more like the women he knew. He did not object to her strange
sweet ways of speech, nor to her odd likes and dislikes, nor even to
an unhesitating frankness that nearly approached rudeness sometimes
in its scorn of all compromise with the truth; but how would others
regard these things? He did not wish to gain the reputation of having
married an oddity.
"Sheila," he said on the morning of the day on which
they were going to this dinner-party, "you should not say
like-a-ness. There are only two syllables in likeness.
It really does sound absurd to hear you say
like-a-ness."
She looked up to him with a quick trouble in her eyes. When had he
spoken to her so petulantly before? And then she cast down her eyes
again, and said submissively, "I will try not to speak like
that. When you go out I take a book and read aloud, and try to speak
like you; but I cannot learn all at once."
"I don't mind," he said. "But you know
other people must think it so odd. I wonder why you should always say
gyarden for garden now, when it is just as easy to say
garden?"
Once upon a time he had said there was no English like the English
spoken in Lewis, and had singled out this very word as typical of one
peculiarity in the pronunciation. But she did not remind him of that.
She only said in the same simple fashion, "If you will tell me
my faults I will try to correct them."
She turned away from him to get an envelope for a letter she had
been writing to her father. He fancied something was wrong, and
perhaps some touch of compunction smote him, for he went after her
and took her hand, and said, "Look here, Sheila. When I point
out any trifles like that, you must not call them faults, and fancy I
have any serious complaint to make. It is for your own good that you
should meet the people who will be your friends on equal terms, and
give them as little as possible to talk about."
"I should not mind their talking about me," said Sheila
with her eyes still cast down, "but it is your wife they must
not talk about; and if you will tell me anything I do wrong I will
correct it."
"Oh, you must not think it is anything so serious as that.
You will soon pick up from the ladies you will meet some notion of
how you differ from them; and if you should startle or puzzle them a
little at first by talking about the chances of the fishing or the
catching of wild-duck, or the way to reclaim bogland, you will soon
get over all that."
Sheila said nothing, but she made a mental memorandum of three
things she was not to speak about. She did not know why these
subjects should be forbidden, but she was in a strange land and going
to see strange people, whose habits were different from hers.
Moreover, when her husband had gone she reflected that these people,
having no fishing and no peat-mosses and no wild-duck, could not
possibly be interested in such affairs; and thus she fancied she
perceived the reason why she should avoid all mention of those
things.
When in the evening Sheila came down dressed and ready to go out,
Lavender had to admit to himself that he had married an exceedingly
beautiful girl, and that there was no country gawkiness about her
manner, and no placid insipidity about her proud and handsome face.
For one brief moment he triumphed in his heart, and had some wild
glimpse of his old project of startling his small world with this
vision from the northern seas. But when he got into the hired
brougham, and thought of the people he was about to meet, and of the
manner in which they would carry away such and such impressions of
the girl, he lost faith in that admiration. He would much rather have
had Sheila unnoticeable and unnoticed—one who would quietly
take her place at the dinner-table, and attract no more special
attention than the flowers, for example, which every one would glance
at with some satisfaction, and then forget in the interest of talking
and dining. He was quite conscious of his own weakness in thus
fearing social criticism. He knew that Ingram would have taken Sheila
anywhere in her blue serge dress, and been quite content and
oblivious of observation. But then Ingram was independent of those
social circles in which a married man must move, and in which his
position is often defined for him by the disposition and manners of
his wife. Ingram did not know how women talked. It was for Sheila's own sake, he
persuaded himself, that he was anxious about the impression she
should make, and that he had drilled her in all that she should do
and say.
"Above all things," he said, "mind you take no
notice of me. Another man will take you in to dinner, of course, and
I shall take in somebody else, and we shall not be near each other.
But it's after dinner, I mean: when the men go into the
drawing-room don't you come and speak to me or take any notice of
me whatever."
"Mayn't I look at you, Frank?"
"If you do you'll have half a dozen people all watching
you, saying to themselves or to each other, 'Poor thing! she
hasn't got over her infatuation yet. Isn't it pretty to see
how naturally her eyes turn toward him?'"
"But I shouldn't mind them saying that," said Sheila
with a smile.
"Oh, you mustn't be pitied in that fashion. Let them keep
their compassion to themselves."
"Do you know, dear," said Sheila very quietly,
"that I think you exaggerate the interest people will take in
me? I don't think I can be of such importance to them. I
don't think they will be watching me as you fancy."
"Oh, you don't know," he said. "I know they
fancy I have done something romantic, heroic and all that kind of
thing, and they are curious to see you."
"They cannot hurt me by looking at me," said Sheila
simply. "And they will soon find out how little there is to
discover."
The house being in Holland Park they had not far to go; and just
as they were driving up to the door a young man, slight, sandy-haired
and stooping, got out of a hansom and crossed the pavement.
"By Jove!" said Lavender, "there is Redburn, I did
not know he knew Mrs. Lorraine and her mother. That is Lord Arthur
Redburn, Sheila: mind, if you should talk to him, not to call him
'my lord.'"
Sheila laughed and said, "How am I to remember all these
things?"
They got into the house, and by and by Lavender found himself,
with Sheila on his arm, entering a drawing-room to present her to
certain of his friends. It was a large room, with a great deal of
gilding and color about it, and with a conservatory at the farther
end; but the blaze of light had not so bewildering an effect on
Sheila's eyes as the appearance of two ladies to whom she was now
introduced. She had heard much about them. She was curious to see
them. Many a time had she thought over the strange story Lavender had
told her of the woman who heard that her husband was dying in a
hospital during the war, and started off, herself and her daughter,
to find him out; how there was in the same hospital another dying man
whom they had known some years before, and who had gone away because
the girl would not listen to him; how this man, being very near to
death, begged that the girl would do him the last favor he would ask
of her, of wearing his name and inheriting his property; and how,
some few hours after the strange and sad ceremony had been performed,
he breathed his last, happy in holding her hand. The father died next
day, and the two widows were thrown upon the world, almost without
friends, but not without means. This man Lorraine had been possessed
of considerable wealth, and the girl who had suddenly become mistress
of it found herself able to employ all possible means in assuaging
her mother's grief. They began to travel. The two women went from
capital to capital, until at last they came to London; and here,
having gathered around them a considerable number of friends, they
proposed to take up their residence permanently. Lavender had often
talked to Sheila about Mrs. Lorraine—about her shrewdness, her
sharp sayings, and the odd contrast between this clever, keen, frank
woman of the world and the woman one would have expected to be the
heroine of a pathetic tale.
But were there two Mrs. Lorraines? That had been Sheila's
first question to herself when, after having been introduced to one
lady under that name, she suddenly saw before her another, who was
introduced to her as Mrs. Kavanagh. The mother and daughter were
singularly alike. They had the same slight and graceful figure, which
made them appear taller than they really were, the same pale, fine
and rather handsome features, the same large, clear gray eyes, and
apparently the same abundant mass of soft fair hair, heavily plaited
in the latest fashion. They were both dressed entirely in black,
except that the daughter had a band of blue round her slender waist.
It was soon apparent, too, that the manner of the two women was
singularly different; Mrs. Kavanagh bearing herself with a certain
sad reserve that almost approached melancholy at times, while her
daughter, with more life and spirit in her face, passed rapidly
through all sorts of varying moods, until one could scarcely tell
whether the affectation lay in a certain cynical audacity in her
speech, or whether it lay in her assumption of a certain coyness and
archness, or whether there was any affectation at all in the matter.
However that might be, there could be no doubt about the sincerity of
those gray eyes of hers. There was something almost cruelly frank in
the clear look of them; and when her face was not lit up by some
passing smile the pale and fine features seemed to borrow something
of severity from her unflinching, calm and dispassionate habit of
regarding those around her.
Sheila was prepared to like Mrs. Lorraine from the first moment
she had caught sight of her. The honesty of the gray eyes attracted
her. And, indeed, the young widow seemed very much interested in the
young wife, and, so far as she could in that awkward period just
before dinner, strove to make friends with her. Sheila was introduced
to a number of people, but none of them pleased her so well as Mrs.
Lorraine. Then dinner was announced, and Sheila found that she was
being escorted across the passage to the room on the other side by
the young man whom she had seen get out of the hansom.
This Lord Arthur Redburn was the younger son of a great Tory duke;
he represented in the House a small country borough which his father
practically owned; he had a fair amount of ability, an uncommonly
high opinion of himself, and a certain affectation of being bored by
the frivolous ways and talk of ordinary society. He gave himself
credit for being the clever member of the family; and if there was
any cleverness going, he had it; but there were some who said that
his reputation in the House and elsewhere as a good speaker was
mainly based on the fact that he had an abundant assurance and was
not easily put out. Unfortunately, the public could come to no
decision on the point, for the reporters were not kind to Lord
Arthur, and the substance of his speeches was as unknown to the world
as his manner of delivering them.
Now, Mrs. Lorraine had intended to tell this young man something
about the girl whom he was to take in to dinner, but she herself had
been so occupied with Sheila that the opportunity escaped her. Lord
Arthur accordingly knew only that he was beside a very pretty woman,
who was a Mrs. Somebody—the exact name he had not
caught—and that the few words she had spoken were pronounced in
a curious way. Probably, he thought, she was from Dublin.
He also arrived at the conclusion that she was too pretty to know
anything about the Deceased Wife's Sister bill, in which he was,
for family reasons, deeply interested, and considered it more likely
that she would prefer to talk about theatres and such things.
"Were you at Covent Garden last night?" he said.
"No," answered Sheila. "But I was there two days
ago, and it is very pretty to see the flowers and the fruit; and then
they smell so sweetly as you walk through."
"Oh yes, it is delightful," said Lord Arthur. "But
I was speaking of the theatre."
"Is there a theatre in there?"
He stared at her, and inwardly hoped she was not
mad.
"Not in among the shops, no. But don't you know Covent
Garden Theatre?"
"I have never been in any theatre, not yet," said
Sheila.
And then it began to dawn upon him that he must be talking to
Frank Lavender's wife. Was there not some rumor about the girl
having come from a remote part of the Highlands? He determined on a
bold stroke: "You have not been long enough in London to see the
theatres, I suppose."
And then Sheila, taking it for granted that he knew her husband
very well, and that he was quite familiar with all the circumstances
of the case, began to chat to him freely enough. He found that this
Highland girl of whom he had heard vaguely was not at all shy. He
began to feel interested. By and by he actually made efforts to
assist her frankness by becoming equally frank, and by telling her
all he knew of the things with which they were mutually acquainted.
Of course by this time they had got up into the Highlands. The young
man had himself been in the Highlands—frequently, indeed. He
had never crossed to Lewis, but he had seen the island from the
Sutherlandshire coast. There were very many deer in Sutherlandshire,
were there not? Yes, he had been out a great many times, and had had
his share of adventures. Had he not gone out before daylight, and
waited on the top of a hill, hidden by some rocks, to watch the mists
clear along the hillsides and in the valley below? Did not he tremble
when he fired his first shot, and had not something passed before his
eyes so that he could not see for a moment whether the stag had
fallen or was away like lightning down the bed of the stream? Somehow
or other, Lord Arthur found himself relating all his experiences, as
if he were a novice begging for the good opinion of a master. She
knew all about it, obviously, and he would tell her his small
adventures if only that she might laugh at him. But Sheila did not
laugh. She was greatly delighted to have this talk about the hills
and the deer and the wet mornings. She forgot all about the dinner before her. The servants
whipped off successive plates without her seeing anything of them:
they received random answers about wine, so that she had three full
glasses standing by her untouched. She was no more in Holland Park at
that moment than were the wild animals of which she spoke so proudly
and lovingly. If the great and frail masses of flowers on the table
brought her any perfume at all, it was a scent of peat-smoke. Lord
Arthur thought that his companion was a little too frank and
confiding, or rather that she would have been had she been talking to
any one but himself. He rather liked it. He was pleased to have
established friendly relations with a pretty woman in so short a
space; but ought not her husband to give her a hint about not
admitting all and sundry to the enjoyment of these favors? Perhaps,
too, Lord Arthur felt bound to admit to himself there were some men
who more than others inspired confidence in women. He laid no claims
to being a fascinating person, but he had had his share of success,
and considered that Sheila showed discrimination as well as
good-nature in talking so to him. There was, after all, no necessity
for her husband to warn her. She would know how to guard against
admitting all men to a like intimacy. In the mean time he was very
well pleased to be sitting beside this pretty and agreeable
companion, who had an abundant fund of good spirits, and who showed
no sort of conscious embarrassment in thanking you with a bright look
of her eyes or by a smile when you told her something that pleased or
amused her.
But these flattering little speculations were doomed to receive a
sudden check. The juvenile M.P. began to remark that a shade
occasionally crossed the face of his fair companion, and that she
sometimes looked a little anxiously across the table, where Mr.
Lavender and Mrs. Lorraine were seated, half hidden from view by a
heap of silver and flowers in the middle of the board. But though
they could not easily be seen, except at such moments as they turned
to address some neighbor, they could be distinctly enough heard when
there was any lull in the general conversation. And what Sheila heard
did not please her. She began to like that fair, clear-eyed young
woman less. Perhaps her husband meant nothing by the fashion in which
he talked of marriage and the condition of a married man, but she
would rather have not heard him talk so. Moreover, she was aware that
in the gentlest possible fashion Mrs. Lorraine was making fun of her
companion, and exposing him to small and graceful shafts of ridicule;
while he seemed, on the whole, to enjoy these attacks.
The ingenuous self-love of Lord Arthur Redburn, M.P., was severely
wounded by the notion that, after all, he had been made a
cat's-paw of by a jealous wife. He had been flattered by this
girl's exceeding friendliness; he had given her credit for a
genuine impulsiveness which seemed to him as pleasing as it was
uncommon; and he had, with the moderation expected of a man in
politics who hoped some day to assist in the government of the nation
by accepting a junior lordship, admired her. But was it all pretence?
Was she paying court to him merely to annoy her husband? Had her
enthusiasm about the shooting of red-deer been prompted by a wish to
attract a certain pair of eyes at the other side of the table? Lord
Arthur began to sneer at himself for having been duped. He ought to
have known. Women were as much women in a Hebridean island as in
Bayswater. He began to treat Sheila with a little more coolness,
while she became more and more preoccupied with the couple across the
table, and sometimes was innocently rude in answering his questions
somewhat at random.
When the ladies were going into the drawing-room, Mrs. Lorraine
put her hand within Sheila's arm and led her to the entrance to
the conservatory. "I hope we shall be friends," she
said.
"I hope so," said Sheila, not very warmly.
"Until you get better acquainted with your husband's
friends you will feel rather lonely at being left as at present, I
suppose."
"A little," said Sheila.
"It is a silly thing altogether. If men smoked after dinner I
could understand it. But they merely sit, looking at wine they
don't drink, talking a few common-places and yawning."
"Why do they do it, then?" said Sheila.
"They don't do it everywhere. But here we keep to the
manners and customs of the ancients."
"What do you know about the manners of the ancients?"
said Mrs. Kavanagh, tapping her daughter's shoulder; as she
passed with a sheet of music.
"I have studied them frequently, mamma," said the
daughter with composure, "—in the monkey-house at the
Zoological Gardens."
The mamma smiled, and passed on to place the music on the piano.
Sheila did not understand what her companion had said; and indeed
Mrs. Lorraine immediately turned, with the same calm, fine face and
careless eyes, to ask Sheila whether she would not, by and by, sing
one of those northern songs of which Mr. Lavender had told her.
A tall girl, with her back hair tied in a knot and her costume
copied from a well-known pre-Raphaelite drawing, sat down to the
piano and sang a mystic song of the present day, in which the moon,
the stars and other natural objects behaved strangely, and were
somehow mixed up with the appeal of a maiden who demanded that her
dead lover should be reclaimed from the sea.
"Do you ever go down to your husband's studio?" said
Mrs. Lorraine.
Sheila glanced toward the lady at the piano.
"Oh, you may talk," said Mrs. Lorraine, with the least
expression of contempt in the gray eyes. "She is singing to
gratify herself, not us."
"Yes, I sometimes go down," said Sheila in as low a
voice as she could manage without falling into a whisper, "and
it is such a dismal place. It is very hard on him to have to work in
a big bare room like that, with the windows half blinded. But sometimes I think Frank would rather
have me out of the way."
"And what would he do if both of us were to pay him a
visit?" said Mrs. Lorraine. "I should so like to see the
studio! Won't you call for me some day and take me with
you?"
Take her with her, indeed! Sheila began to wonder that she did not
propose to go alone. Fortunately, there was no need to answer the
question, for at this moment the song came to an end, and there was a
general movement and murmur of gratitude.
"Thank you," said Mrs. Lorraine to the lady who had
sung, and who was now returning to the photographs she had
left—"thank you very much. I knew some one would instantly
ask you to sing that song: it is the most charming of all your songs,
I think, and how well it suits your voice, too!"
Then she turned to Sheila again: "How did you like Lord
Arthur Redburn?"
"I think he is a very good young man."
"Young men are never good, but they may be very
amiable," said Mrs. Lorraine, not perceiving that Sheila had
blundered on a wrong adjective, and that she had really meant that
she thought him honest and pleasant.
"You did not speak at all, I think, to your neighbor on the
right: that was wise of you. He is a most insufferable person, but
mamma bears with him for the sake of his daughter, who sang just now.
He is too rich. And he smiles blandly, and takes a sort of
after-dinner view of things, as if he coincided with the arrangements
of Providence. Don't you take coffee? Tea, then. I have met your
aunt—I mean, Mr. Lavender's aunt: such a dear old lady she
is!"
"I don't like her," said Sheila.
"Oh, don't you, really?"
"Not at present, but I shall try to like her."
"Well," said Mrs. Lorraine calmly, "you know she
has her peculiarities. I wish she wouldn't talk so much about
Marcus Antoninus and doses of medicine. I fancy I smell calomel when she comes near. I suppose if
she were in a pantomime, they'd dress her up as a phial, tie a
string round her neck and label her 'POISON.' Dear me, how
languid one gets in this climate! Let us sit down. I wish I was as
strong as mamma."
They sat down together, and Mrs. Lorraine evidently expected to be
petted and made much of by her new companion. She gave herself pretty
little airs and graces, and said no more cutting things about
anybody. And Sheila somehow found herself being drawn to the girl, so
that she could scarcely help taking her hand, and saying how sorry
she was to see her so pale and fine and delicate. The hand, too, was
so small that the tiny white fingers seemed scarcely bigger than the
claws of a bird. Was not that slender waist, to which some little
attention was called by a belt of bold blue, just a little too
slender for health, although the bust and shoulders were exquisitely
and finely proportioned?
"We were at the Academy all the morning, and mamma is not a
bit tired. Why has not Mr. Lavender anything in the Academy? Oh, I
forgot" she added, with a smile. "Of course, he has been
very much engaged. But now I suppose he will settle down to
work."
Sheila wished that this fragile-looking girl would not so
continually refer to her husband; but how was any one to find fault
with her when she put a little air of plaintiveness into the
ordinarily cold gray eyes, and looked at her small hand as much as to
say, "The fingers there are very small, and even whiter than the
glove that covers them. They are the fingers of a child, who ought to
be petted."
Then the men came in from the dining-room. Lavender looked round
to see where Sheila was—perhaps with a trifle of disappointment
that she was not the most prominent figure there. Had he expected to
find all the women surrounding her and admiring her, and all the men
going up to pay court to her? Sheila was seated near a small table,
and Mrs. Lorraine was showing her something. She was just like
anybody else. If she was a wonderful sea-princess who had come into a
new world, no one seemed to observe her. The only thing that
distinguished her from the women around her was her freshness of
color and the unusual combination of black eyelashes and dark blue
eyes. Lavender had arranged that Sheila's first appearance in
public should be at a very quiet little dinner-party, but even here
she failed to create any profound impression. She was, as he had to
confess to himself again, just like anybody else.
He went over to where Mrs. Lorraine was, and sat down beside her.
Sheila, remembering his injunctions, felt bound to leave him there;
and as she rose to speak to Mrs. Kavanagh, who was standing by, that
lady came and begged her to sing a Highland song. By this time
Lavender had succeeded in interesting his companion about something
or other, and neither of them noticed that Sheila had gone to the
piano, attended by the young politician who had taken her in to
dinner. Nor did they interrupt their talk merely because some one
played a few bars of prelude. But what was this that suddenly
startled Lavender to the heart, causing him to look up with surprise?
He had not heard the air since he was in Borva, and when Sheila
sang
Hark, hark! the horn
On mountain-breezes borne!
Awake, it is morn,
Awake, Monaltrie!—
all sorts of reminiscences came rushing in upon him. How often had
he heard that wild story of Monaltrie's flight sung out in the
small chamber over the sea, with a sound of the waves outside and a
scent of sea-weed coming in at the door and the windows! It was from
the shores of Borva that young Monaltrie must have fled. It must have
been in Borva that his sweetheart sat in her bower and sang, the
burden of all her singing being "Return, Monaltrie!" And
then, as Sheila sang now, making the monotonous and plaintive air
wild and strange—
What cries of wild despair
Awake the sultry air?
Frenzied with anxious care,
She seeks Monaltrie—
he heard no more of the song. He was thinking of bygone days in
Borva, and of old Mackenzie living in his lonely house there. When
Sheila had finished singing he looked at her, and it seemed to him
that she was still that wonderful princess whom he had wooed on the
shores of the Atlantic. And if those people did not see her as he saw
her, ought he to be disappointed because of their blindness?
But if they saw nothing mystic or wonderful about Sheila, they at
all events were considerably surprised by the strange sort of music
she sang. It was not of a sort commonly heard in a London
drawing-room. The pathos of its minor chords, its abrupt intervals,
startling and wild in their effect, and the slowly subsiding wail in
which it closed, did not much resemble the ordinary drawing-room
"piece." Here, at least, Sheila had produced an impression;
and presently there was a heap of people round the piano, expressing
their admiration, asking questions and begging her to continue. But
she rose. She would rather not sing just then. Whereupon Lavender
came out to her and said, "Sheila, won't you sing that wild
one about the farewell—that has the sound of the pipes in it,
you know?"
"Oh yes," she said directly.
Lavender went back to his companion.
"She is very obedient to you," said Mrs. Lorraine with a
smile.
"Yes, at present," he said; and he thought meanly of
himself for saying it the moment the words were uttered.
Oh, soft be thy slumbers, by Tigh-na-linne's
waters;
Thy late-wake was sung by Macdiarmid's fair
daughters;
But far in Lochaber the true heart was weeping
Whose hopes are entombed in the grave where
thou'rt sleeping.
So Sheila sang; and it seemed to the people that this ballad was
even more strange than its predecessor. When the song was over,
Sheila seemed rather anxious to get out of the crowd, and indeed
walked away into the conservatory to have a look at the
flowers.
Yes, Lavender had to confess to himself, Sheila was just like
anybody else in this drawing-room. His sea-princess had produced no
startling impression. He forgot that he had just been teaching her
the necessity of observing the ways and customs of the people around
her, so that she might avoid singularity.
On one point, at least, she was resolved she would attend to his
counsels: she would not make him ridiculous by any show of affection
before the eyes of strangers. She did not go near him the whole
evening. She remained for the most part in that half conservatory,
half ante-room at the end of the drawing-room; and when any one
talked to her she answered, and when she was left alone she turned to
the flowers. All this time, however, she could observe that Lavender
and Mrs. Lorraine were very much engrossed in their conversation;
that she seemed very much amused, and he at times a trifle
embarrassed; and that both of them had apparently forgotten her
existence. Mrs. Kavanagh was continually coming to Sheila and trying
to coax her back into the larger room, but in vain. She would rather
not sing any more that night. She liked to look at flowers. She was
not tired at all, and she had already seen those wonderful
photographs about which everybody was talking.
"Well, Sheila, how did you enjoy yourself?" said her
husband as they were driving home.
"I wish Mr. Ingram had been there," said Sheila.
"Ingram! He would not have stopped in the place five minutes,
unless he could play the part of Diogenes and say rude things to
everybody all round. Were you at all dull?"
"A little."
"Didn't somebody look after you?"
"Oh yes, many persons were very kind.
But—but—"
"Well?"
"Nobody seemed to be better off than myself. They all seemed
to be wanting something to do; and I am sure they were all very glad
to come away."
"No, no, no, Sheila. That is only your fancy. You were not much interested, that is
evident; but you will get on better when you know more of the people.
You were a stranger—that is what disappointed you—but you
will not always be a stranger."
Sheila did not answer. Perhaps she contemplated with no great hope
or longing the possibility of her coming to like such a method of
getting through an evening. At all events, she looked forward with no
great pleasure to the chance of her having to become friends with
Mrs. Lorraine. All the way home Sheila was examining her own heart to
try to discover why such bitter feelings should be there. Surely that
girl was honest: there was honesty in her eyes. She had been most
kind to Sheila herself. And was there not at times, when she
abandoned the ways and speech of a woman of the world, a singular coy
fascination about her, that any man might be excused for yielding to,
even as any woman might yield to it? Sheila fought with herself, and
resolved that she would cast forth from her heart those harsh fancies
and indignant feelings that seemed to have established themselves
there. She would not hate Mrs. Lorraine.
As for Lavender, what was he thinking of, now that he and his
young wife were driving home from their first experiment in society?
He had to confess to a certain sense of failure. His dreams had not
been realized. Every one who had spoken to him had conveyed to him,
as freely as good manners would admit, their congratulations and
their praises of his wife. But the impressive scenes he had been
forecasting were out of the question. There was a little curiosity
about her on the part of those who knew her story, and that was all.
Sheila bore herself very well. She made no blunders. She had a good
presence, she sang well, and every one could see that she was
handsome, gentle and honest. Surely, he argued with himself, that
ought to content the most exacting. But, in spite of all argument, he
was not content. He did not regret that he had sacrificed his liberty
in a freak of romance; he did not even regard the fact of a man in
his position having dared to marry a penniless girl as anything very
meritorious or heroic; but he had hoped that the dramatic
circumstances of the case would be duly recognized by his friends,
and that Sheila would be an object of interest and wonder and talk in
a whole series of social circles. But the result of his adventure was
different. There was only one married man the more in London, and
London was not disposed to pay any particular heed to that
circumstance. |